January 24

Collect results! the statistics were awesome to look at. i was happy.
than came the results and i was stunned!! my score was not like predicted or wanted.
it really hit my heart deep like a lightning strike. i could not bear staying in skool further.
i left skool and wen home. i had lots missed calls from my dad n sis. it took me some courage before i could tell them la.
nothing much said on phone. wen home tearing in the bus. once at home i cried even more.
later at night, discussed with my family.

January 25

Wen to Singapore poly for consultation and also at ngee ann poly for consultation. there again, disappointments.
on the way home, in the bus, i was tearing again. could not control. wen i reach home, again i started to cry...
i just cant take it anymore. with a score like that, i cant go anywhere. my parents say no to the only choice left. but i dunt want to do the other choice cause.. i JUST DUNT WAN!! but i hav no choice..

why must b stuck in this mess? why must i be even been born to my stuck in this mess. i have only abit of hope left. if that too does not work. i will not forgive myself ever. but i pray and really hope i get this one last chance.

what ever my past sins i did, forget them and give me a chance and i promise to you i will give my best over my best. i will achieve something better. please! please! please!

Just get me a place at Republic Poly, a course which i have no interest, i dun mind. i just Dont want to repeat my o levels! I cant go ITE even if i wan to go. so please. Just give me a chance. Let me have a place in republic poly!